so today we find out john's brain scan results...i'm actually pretty nervous about this one...its one of those horrible feelings in the pit of my stomach..either way its going to change our lives somehow...
john was diagnosed with mTBI(mild traumatic brain injury) thanks to having mortars(sp) and rockets blowing up a few meters above his head...now we're finding out the extent of the damage...thanks to that his memory is horrible and honestly getting worse each day..its horrible watching the person you love forget the day to day small little details...and kind of scary..i worry each day when i'm not with him...
i have to say that there are days when i'm ready to throw my hands up and quit..but i know i love him and i would never leave..its just a very hard life to live...
its also very hard trying to feel like i have alot of support...i'm here to support my husband and kids...and yet i really dont have a support system for me...i'm not trying to have a pity party...i just needed a small moment of venting..LOL...ok i'm done...off to get the grouchy 18yr old up for school...load the dishwasher...and then get ready for work myself...wake up the other grouchy(john)...if anyone is reading this have a wonderful day!
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