Friday, September 24, 2010

Been a long while...

Goodness its been several months since I've written and its been some very loooong months...



The husband just got home from an inpatient treatment facility in Colorado...it was a 28 day program...he had some really rough times there and some good times there...I was so very hopeful this program would at least start my husband on the healing path..but I just dont see it...

In the past week since he's been home his mood swings have been horrible..one day he realizes he needs to get his med board and knows what he needs to do then the next day he just doesnt care about anything...because of everything I'm taking a leave of absence from my job to try to help him get on a steady keal...I just dont think its gonna help to much...I have the option of quitting my job but I'm also worried that if he doesnt start doing what needs to be done he'll end up being chaptered out because he just doesnt care and then without me having a job we'll be screwed even more then we already are...

I'm so frustrated with things...I need a good cry and damn it I dont have the time to do it..I have to take care of everything and everyone ..and I have no help from anyone...ARG!